~*~ Lost In Emotions ~*~

My thoughts often drift away

to my precious neice that was killed

on a horriable rainy night....in a one-car wreck

she will always

be in my mind and in my heart....

I love you....your Aunt Kathy

To Erica's Page

This is My Dedication Page for my Neice....Erica Ford

She loved the snow.....

so I added it for her...

She loved fireworks and tinkerbell....too

Erica Sherie Ford
6/24/84 to 6/14/03

That Night

I was thinking about you last night Erica...
I wished the last time I had seen you
I'd grabbed you, hugged you, and told you how much I love you...

As I laid in my bed at 2:00 this morning
I remember that night like it was yesterday....
tears stream down my face

It was raining...raining so hard...
I was with my mom.. who had just gotten out of the hospital
with open heart surgery...
there was a knock at the door about 8:00 that night
there stood a police officer...
a Ford girl had been South Flighted out to mobile hospital...
My mama screamed out in pain.
I got in my van and drove to the church...
where my sister was suppose to be cleaning...
I was afraid it was her...
but she was at the church with your sister Anna...
It was you Erica! Oh my God...Erica....

..we jumped into the van and drove as fast as we could in the rain....
praying so hard and loud....
but then about half way
there was a presence that came in the van
we all felt it...we were quiet,
It was Jesus and he had you....without a word spoken
we all had a peace ....
I knew then... you were not going to be at the hospital...
not you anyway...I knew you had gone....

You were on your way to clean the church with your mom and sister...
running late from work you drove too fast....
you didn't make the curve..
you died on the way to the hospital....

I saw your lifeless body...I can still see it...
I'll never forget...
Only your dad and I could stand to go in...to tell you good-bye
Now everyone wished they'd seen you just one more time...
You were so beautiful..as you always are...
lying there with only a bruise on your head...

I kissed you...for my last time....on this earth
my precious angel....Erica

I've missed your beautiful angelic voice....
I remember your favorite song ...I play it almost every day
One of the songs you did with the Jackson Mass Choir at College....
"Breath On Me.".....It helps sometimes...
We were so proud of you...

My daddy... your pawpaw...now 80
said you came to him the other night in his dream....
he said you had a long talk...
he said you told him you would be back for him ......
I wonder...are you going to take him with you soon?

Your pawpaw misses your hugs and visits..
Your mawmaw keeps your picture album by her chair
where she talks to you
she'll never get over loosing you...

That week we buried you...
In that same week we continued on with the wedding of your sister..
We felt like you would have wanted us too...
What emotions....too many to handle...
We just wanted to see you so bad...somehow...
there in your spot...By your sister...
but you weren't there anymore
Not where we could touch you anyway...

Your an aunt now Erica...her name is Erianna...
She looks just like you...at least we want her too
Part you Erica and your sister Anna...How unique!
Your soon to be an aunt again....Erianna will have a sister
The same age difference that was between you and your sister....

We miss you baby girl....
You who were never married...maybe just maybe kissed once.

God must sometimes want those that are pure....I guess
May he wants someone who's been untouched by this wicked world...
not many of us are....
You were....and always will be.
I don't have the answers to all my questions...
maybe someday ....

I miss you........